For my entire adult life the Lord has provided for all needs. I've always had enough money, and in the perspective of most of the world, much more then enough. I've always been able to afford fresh fruits and vegetables, protein, and extra treats. I've lived in a modest budget, paid off debt, made repeated decisions with respect to need versus want, and worked multiple jobs to pay off debt. Through all that, the Lord has provided the jobs, the places to live, and opportunity to sow. As I have trusted the Lord with my life and finances I have been blessed in so many ways.

When I stepped out to go on the World Race, the Lord blew me away with provision! I wanted to enter missions for years, but the Lord kept saying not yet. In that season of waiting, I worked hard to pay off my student debt, sought community and invested in my career. When I left for the World Race in July 2014 I sold my car, which paid off the remainder of my student loan. My fundraising goals were met and I left knowing the remainder of the funds were coming.

When I left for Kingdom Journeys in January 2016 I wasn't fully funded, I had no idea where the money was coming from, but I knew the Lord was leading me to go. So as I went, I knew He would provide...and He has. On top of my funding He provided for my plane ticket home in March to be with my family.

I know the Lord will continue to provide for me. I know He will continue to lead me. I have about six weeks left on the field. As I look ahead, for the first time in my life, I have no idea what the next season looks like. I have no idea where I will work, where I will live, what I will drive, or even what I want to do.

Here's what I do know:

I'm coming home mid-July. I'm going to the Atlantic Christian Ashram for a few days in July. www.atlanticchristianashram.ca I'm going to Pennsylvania to stand in a wedding for one of my closest friend in August. I'll be in South Maitland, NS August 22nd for my niece's 5th birthday. (This is the most serious commitment in this list...just ask my niece.)

Some people may find such a list (or rather, lack of a list) refreshing...to have a clean slate, an open agenda, a blank chapter. Normally I would find this very stressful. But for some reason that can only be divine, I find peace in knowing that doors will open when they need to and provision will come, as it always has.

In Psalms 32 the Lord says "I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you". I know that to be true, especially as I look over the last few years. But as we drove the 5-hour trip from the airport in Havana to our ministry location in Sancti Spiritus I had lots of time to think. During the drive I told the Lord that I wanted a place to belong, a place that I fit. He immediately told me that I belonged in Him. So I reminded Him that I wanted to put roots down. He reminded me, ever so gently, that my roots are in Him and that they're growing deeper.

This was not quite the response I was looking for. I wanted a place. I wanted a field. I wanted specifics for a plan. The Lord often gives us just what we need, nothing more, nothing less. I trust that the Lord knows what He is doing. I trust in His plan for me. I trust that I'm not going to be disappointed...He's given me no reason to doubt. He always has provided, He always will. I'm expectant of the good things He has in store for me and the new places He will lead me.

What are you waiting on the Lord for? Are you asking Him to reveal the next steps? Are you doubting He will 'come through'? Ask Him to guide your steps, to give you wisdom in your choices and peace in the waiting.